Saturday, Dec 8, 2007

hey ya'll I'm back from a super long beauty sleep ... ermm there has been loads of stuff that I'd missed out during the past months as well as sad stories and happy ones :) so here goes nothing

14/10/07 most my my friends know this already but yea ... this is some thing for my grand mom .. I'm sorry for what I've done during the past years . I've not been that grand child you always wanted me to be . I've been disrespectful as times ..I'm sorry for all that happened and I really wish that I chould maybe one day see you again , I apologize for cursing and shouting and putting the blame on you .. I feel like a brat and with all my love and grace .. I apologize to you for that :) I'm Sorry ... Grandma I know most of you out there don't really know why I'm saying this ...man I always tear up when I say this .. ermm .. my grand mom passed away during her sleep , she had a stroke . as you know , I'm not that smart and helpful as I am , and I feel super duper stupid for not respecting her like I do to others ... Ever since we had a huge argument , we'd never looked eye to eye . When we meet up , she'll just look at me as if I'm invisible ... We don't really talk to each other .. I'll always feel hated when she was around . It was like that feeling you have when someone is looking at you with all their hate and anger . I feel so mad at myself on that day my grand mom passed . I never had a chance to even say I was sorry . and her death was soo sudden . My grand dad chouldn't express himself without crying ... and till this day on , I'll always have that scar that'll never heal ... At that time , my aunt from England also flew by about 4 days early , lucky she had some time with her mom :) well , I can say I had fun which my aunt was here ॥ she always thinks that the glass is half full .. she loves making fun of anything she chould get her hands on .. lol। like my bunny , she said '' why don't you buy a fake toy rabbit so that he chould hub it '' lol .. she's a real joker.. add to that , she knows I love Supernatural .. and she'll always ask me which guy I like the most .. hahaha .. hard to say . but yea it was great having her during the holidays . we even celebrated my grand dad's birthday like we always do every year .. so yea it was a pack load of fun .

anyways , I have been a lil stupid lately , I'm not gonna lie ... I've been playing stupid myyearbook battles for like what seems to be FOREVER । I mean its super addective and I can't stop from doing it . Once you start a battle , you can't stop ॥ and you're always guled to the PC screen until you finally win . its annoying in a way words can explain . and there's no point battling other people just to find out whos better looking , or who has the best pet !!! wtf ?!?! who fucking cares anyways ... its not like I can win one thousand bucks or anything for being more pupular than everyone .. right now I finally found out how stupid I was believing in scams like these . and I feel super sorry for those who are still asking me to vote for them ... SORRY GUYS , but I DON'T RETURN FAVORS !!!

On the other hand , loads of annoying guys message me all the time ... and I always receive messages like" whatz up " or " hi , how are you " ... some even ask me if I wanna go out ???!!! who the hell do you think I am . I'm not your lil candy cane that you can call out too when ever you want to . seriously , it's disgusting .. hmm I don't know , what I just said might be mean but here's what I think , look .. I know I'm single and I'm only 14 .. and come on , I'm too young to have a serious relationship .. and I'm being as truthful as I am right now . I'm not being disrespectful or anything to you guys .. just maybe when I'm older okay :) and yea this also goes out to avinash , first off .. I don't know you ... I know that you're from my school ... but I don't recall meeting you .. and yea I'm sorry but I just can't go out with you .. okay Alright , now thats all done ... my mom , dad and I went to Singapore for my aunt's wedding ॥ ( auntie adeline and uncle charles ) on 16/11/07 which was last month ... I was hoping that I chould meet up with my hooba buddies ( raven and amanda ) along the wayy , but it was impossible ... I had my whole trip packed up ... I didn't visit sentosa which sucks .. I didn't visit the singapore zoo which sucks ... wait I didn't even try the local food there , which sucks even more .. gosh I missed out a lot of stuff when I was there ... kinda sucks ।lol .. on the 1st december , my whole family plus me had a trip up to ipoh for the same wedding but this time it was in Ipoh .. ahhh you get what I mean .. hahaha .. it was fun .. my uncle even brought a brand new sony camera for the wedding .. cos I think he's sick with my mom's humongous canon NON digital camera ... hahaha . I LOVE MY BROTHERS .. I'm not gonna lie :) they're both super cute in their own way and they're both super funny .. WHAT THE HELL . they ARE still my brothers :)

I went back to my old primary school *Kuan Cheng* to meet my old friends । after all , it was children's day ॥ It's be a rock hard two years since we all met up , and what better place to do it than your old school :) Everyone changed ALOT ... and I was surprise that my class teacher still recognized me .. lol .everything from the teachers , to the class room , and the basketball field changed ALOT .. lucky I did went back to kuan cheng . sad thing siew tien didn't had the time to go with me ..

okays ... before you start thinking I'm a huge talker । I'll end this post short and simple ॥ thanks for reading and take care :)

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